In the interest of transparency and honesty, and because some people have questioned my lack of posting, I felt an update was in order.
In a nutshell, my life is crazy busy right now and Sir is still required to be elsewhere for work with no clear end date at this moment. The kids are back in school and I am working now, juggling my professional responsibilities while running a household on my own - MAD PROPS to all the single parents out there, I do NOT know how you do it and I admire you so so very much because this shit sucks, and not in the sexy way I like. #Fuckabunchathis
But I digress….
I spoke to Sir about how overwhelmed I am feeling, how lonely I am for him and how honestly, with all the chaos and without him here, my sex drive is completely non-existent. By the time I am done for the day, I am ready to fall into bed - forget checking in and posting pictures and blogging etc - all of that feels like a chore, just one more thing I *have* to do at the moment, and things that all adding to my feelings of being overwhelmed, overworked, and exhausted. Sir likes my submission when I am gaining pleasure from the act, but he is far less interested in me just going through the motions. He can see I need a moment.
Likewise, his job is very demanding and while this project is going on, he too is working seriously ridiculous hours and is also too tired most days to manage what I have and have not done for the day, let alone truly appreciate the pics and videos etc. We remain in contact throughout the day and night, but mostly we just miss each other and want to hear about the other’s days.
So yesterday after talking about it all, Sir issued the following decree:
"Seeing as how you have endowed upon me the trust and permission to be firm with you and to lead us where I see fit, that grants me the authority to also call for a timeout or, at the least, a slowing down of the process. So for the next two weeks, that is what I want to do. I really do love hearing from you or waking up to an email, but that is in no way required. If you get out of the shower and want to snap a sexy photo for me, do it for it’s own sake, not out of obligation. If we are chatting and our conversation drifts to the carnal, we can have fun. This is supposed to be about liberation and right now it isn’t that. Your life is in massive flux right now and we really haven’t had time to adjust to it completely. You deserve that. I think the reason we are able to fall into our "roles" and explore this part of ourselves is because of the level of comfort we feel toward one another. Right now, neither of us are in a comfortable place.
So in two weeks, September 22nd, let’s talk about this again. This is by no means a capitulation. It’s just an acknowledgement that we need to get some normalcy in our “vanilla” life before we can further explore the kinky, wild side. I’m the boss and that’s the way I want it. ;)
Unless I get super horny.
I love you,
And that’s where we stand folks. What I truly need is for Sir to come home, but since that is out of our hands at the moment, I just need a second to breathe. I need to fall into a new routine and adjust to all the changes that have taken place around me. I need to organize my time in a way that doesn’t leave me completely exhausted and I need to clean this mother fucking house lol!
I will still be here over the next couple of weeks and I highly anticipate that will be all the time I need to get back into the swing of things. During that time, I will still be here, posting as I’d like, answering messages etc - I just won’t be REQUIRED to do so, thus it won’t feel like yet another item on my too-full-already to-do list. :) So be patient, don’t fret. We aren’t going anywhere and we love you all for following along with our journey and life.